Sometimes it hits you hard & fast.
You get a glimpse of your old self– your old smile, your old worries, your old life.
You remember what it was like to look forward to him returning from work; him bringing you flowers; him loving you — live & in person.
The pictures & the memories help, but sometimes, sometimes you just want your husband to hold you. It may seem like torture, but I posted this one on my fridge because it reminds me of how happy I once was, and forces me to try to live and smile because that’s all he ever wanted me to do.